任贤齐-心太软

what is chap cheng actually???

can someone told me what is that.. my father scold me like this..
chap cheng means your mum make love with someone and other father and the child is chap cheng..
but my blood is same with u but u scold me chapcheng kia.. wat the fuck u trying to say,, n say me kim sui.
dad u know wat are u trying to say??? i feel blur and pain when u scold me like this..
no reason to make me accept.. i fell frustration!!!

i dun no wat u want actually.. i on with u so long d.. but now u told me i just need your money.
n tell me my hol family also money face u means i'm also the same??
u hurting me... i hope u understand me a bit dun lied me and trust me..
that it!!!! is that very over.. i just want simple relationship nia.. like this u also cant make it..
u make me dissapointed. u tell me u want reject them when there call u out yesterday promise me..
but now u go out with them.. how i going to trust u if u keep lying me..
u cal me tolerate u but who going to tolerate me.. i really tired,, and u ask me why everyday i want quarrel.
ut why u dun want ask yourself this question.. if u din make me angry i wont angry.

我知道什么叫做心碎的感觉了

我想要找回以前的你可以吗?能对我一心一以的你。
 现在你的心好想没有我的存在了。是我多心了吗?我看到了。
如果我没有看到我也不知道你变了心你的觜是说没 有可是有你也不可能说的。
你今天跟我去thailand 了。可是我shopping你就睡在车上跟我说你生病了。
可是我看你是lazy啦。是生病可是lazy比较多咯。
晚上一起去吃steamboat我叫你不 要吃辣那么多我也是关系你。
过后问你不要吃了吗?你就跟我说你不知道我生病吗你跟我走3年了你不知道吗?我不知道该说什么。那我就没有讲什么了。我就去拿 肉来吃过后你也吃了。
那你不要说你不要吃。
吃饱回要叫你跟我买衣服可是你就跟我说你不要跟我!那时候我可以跟你说我真的要哭了。
我来到这里就想要跟你拍照 跟倍我买衣服可是你两个也不能做给我。
叫你跟我拍你就问我拍什么讲到很不爽。不要跟我买衣服我也不要讲了。
回来了想要叫你去disco过回他们不要去了。 你也没有说要去啊。那我就跟我姐讲话,可是我弟弟看到你走去下面跟我说你不是生病吗?
为什么你还能去我也不知道该说什么。
为什么你要去你不要跟我说你要去 呢?你可以叫我去的。
如果不要最少你也跟我说吧。可是你走出去我也不知道。
我骂你问你为什么你不要倍我买衣服你就骂我跟我说wen啊我倍你来这里就可以了 现在我头痛为什么你不要给我睡觉。
如果你头痛那为什么你还要去disco呢?
我真的搞不懂你问我跟你走那么久了你生病我不知道吗?
可是我真的不知道你什么是生病什么时候没有的。
因为如果你真的要的话你就会说你没有生病了。
我在这里 关这eyes然后慢慢想回你跟我说的话就哭了。
跟我说我不了解你因为你一时一样。我问你你的心有谁你就跟我说-我还有电话的女人。
那时候我知道什么叫做心 碎的感觉了。
每天也在想你说的话你做的事让我很烦。
我不知道要这样做。T_T

even though i dun have u i can survive...

李佳薇 煎熬 完整版音檔 -華納official HQ官方版音檔

WTF

wtf i know u 4years d... but nowadays i dun understand u anymore...
i control u.. i dun allow u smoke i dun allow u go karoake or disco.. this is because i care u and love u...
bcs of me u seldom smoke and disco.. but now u tell me 'i dint marry u yet but now u already control my life" i on with u 4 years now u tell me this.. i cant accept..  i ask him what do u want from me.. he say he want FREEDOM i already give him freedom as much as i can.. but now he say dun enough... i really dun understand u d.. u not the one who i recognize.. i really tired d.. i want hug someone.. and call someone replace u... if i can..... u sms with someone by sending sayang i see it but i just pretend i cant see.. so what do u want?? i try to be patience but u just want to make me angry..
i damn angry.. really really angry..
what can i do.. i want u become the person i recognize last time.. can u??? i eat dinner with u den u tell me i love that noodles very much.. but actually i eat that noodles i will vomit.. i on with u so many years den u tell me i love that noodles.. if i angry u say i want quarrel.. if i dint say out or angry u try to forget..

sometimes i really really dun want angry but u try to make me angry... yesterday he told me he drink beer.. den he go disco, he spend 180.. i get shock.. but he honest tell me.. if i angry next time he wont honest anymore..so what can i do?? eventhough i very sad but i just can silence and accept the true.. bcs he honest. i already told him yesterday dun spend over 100 but now he spent 80.. i really.... sad but cant scold him...i want slap ppl d.. nowadays our relationship become poor and poor.. my problem or your problems??? he everydays say me wants to quarrel and want wins.. but he the one.. he keep saying me.... i should give up this relationship.. izit??haix.......

15.9.2011 finally i see my result

18.9.2011 i just tell myself to hardworking.. and try my best to find the mood.. to study.
but.. this time my result really make me surprising and expected.. fail more than previous eh.. i really have to think carefully study really suitable me??? last sem i tell myself if i fail acc again i dun want study d.. but now i fail my acc and.................. really dun have the mood and tell people wat i fail... really dun 1 to face it if cAn.... maybe study really not suitable for me.....
>.< i already try my best and i feel i will pass but now tell me actually my feeling is wrong.. not only my feeling my brain also think wrong.... actually want enjoy but now become moody

finally i find my mood.... and start to worried. when i worried i will study.. but always last min.. i dont have time to use right now.. because i relax last few days. now i just planning to study but i just left 2 days. the bad news is 19 august i have to work.. @@ today loon tell me he dont plan to buy car. he say next years after chinese new year only buy.. i quite dissapointed.. but maybe is good news. at least i can focus on my test later only decide.. now 4 oclock morning i still study but last few day i'm playing games.. really funny.. everytime i doing the same thing at the same time. but i scared until died.... ><

when i have mood to study.. every time got something disturb me or make until i very angry... today also the same.. i plan to study but.......
my father call me do this do that.. rearrange all the thing.. wasting my time.. do until 4pm.. at that time i dont have mood d... now i very angry and want bite or slap someone.. to release my stress.................
@#@#$#W%@#%@%@%T!$~@#!12$!%@^%$&$^ 
really >.< haix..............

我应该很幸福...
可是有时后也有不开心...
我可能真的很幸运 因为我有那么好的男朋友... 他真的
会是我的未来的老公... 如果没有意外的话..
真的很想抱他然后跟他讲我想要做他的老婆 >.<

Boh MOOD a....

i really boh mood... i want study but i cant.. i really hate myself...
ahhhhhhhh... kek ki nia.. all bcs of the car again..
my mum allow me buy car if my loon mother allow.. but now his mother allow..
my mum call me consider again.. i really kek ki until want died d.. @@
if u really dont allow i buy u can say early.. u dun give me hope.. i already tell u i want buy.. u the one agree but now u say cant.. u really wasting my times nia.. i want siao ki d.. just now also watch movie hold day.. i dun no what to do.. i left few days nia.. really short of time a..

i want my life become more smooth..

i really angry myself.. bcs of the car.. i keep thinking and consider,,. and make until my life feel difficult and frustration.. i just want simple life. that it.
but can i??
i only have 6 days time but i dint study at all.. what can i do..
i really wants to give up.. but i not satisfy.
 i use 1 year to study so hard i dont want waste my time.. so i hope this sem i can pass all my sub.
if fail again. i think i will consider give up. and waste 5000.. i feel pressure. i want settle the car thing. deni can concentrate my study. this sem i feel i HOPELESS.. bcs i become losser. everything become not smooth.
i dont no what to do. 4 days already the book on the table with the com but... i din touch at all
this is bcs i worried the car.. i keep thinking with the money....
i really a losser.. feel embrassed.....haix..>.<

can u pls leave me alone!!! @#@$%$%#$%$$#@

today loon say want bring me go n eat gcb.. yesterday promise me want but my mum call me buy something.. so we din go d.. so just now want go butmy grandfather cook d.. i very difficult call my grandpa call my sister eat. at last he call but my sister dun 1 eat.. luckily he din force me go n eat.. now loon work butterworth. but i stay georgetown.. so everyday he also very late only reach home.. just now reach he want bring m go n eat mcdonald d.. suddenly my father call him go ipoh.. de he ask where, when n why lo.. den he say dun 1 liao.. but my father say he dun no how to go ipoh.. so only call loon.. but i can tell u loon english not very gud.
so he dun even no how to read sometime so how he going to bring my dad reach there.. he say dun 1 my father keep force.. every day i can see loon only few hours.. he back we eat d den slp d.. now he call he go.. now go den 6 am only reach.. loon dun need slp d izit?? i dun no why my father so selfish he din think before... he say nvm later give him slp... but i be shiok ma.. that day also the same he say dun no call loon bring he go.. at last loon dun no give him scold until like dog only.. den my mum call loon call him go.. my mum also no brain.. den my mum say if dun 1 den tell me father he already know my father attitude but he call loon say.. he say sure be eh la.. no brain think meh.. purpose i think..
at last my mum din call my father so he keep call loon go n say i call u go also difficult a.. if i know how to go ipoh i dun need call u d.. call until so pah mia.. he say like this wor.. hopeless nia.. i tell him father that day u call him bring u go butterworth he dun no also give u scold d... now u still call him go later dun no u scold again.. den he ignore me.. wat the hell n keep call loon go.. loon keep refuse he keep call him go... i dun no la.. i feel angry nia.. den i ask him just now call my mum my mum say wat but he ignore me.. he keep tell the story to my sister i feel i'm not his gf anymore.. den he go n do the air condition eh but he injure d.. dun no why.. den i ask him why like but he tell me the reason loh.. den he din say anything liao.. but he go n tell my sister how he injury and alll that but he din tell me.. even though he not willing to go also din tell me only tell my sister.. i feel very agry bcs i feel like this not respect me loh... i dun no la.. maybe he dun want tell me or wat.. but he like  this treat me....
after that my father keep call i also pek chek d.. i call my mum n tell my mum loon dun 1 go.. ask my mum call my father n tell her loon not willing to go.. den my mum scold me tell me if dun 1 go tell your father la .. why keep calling me.. i'm busy but u keep calling if dun 1 go just tell him la.. he know my father attitude eh.. den i tell him u call only can we tell him we dun 1 go he keep call us go.. den she also keep scold me.. i straight close her phone.. i feel angry.. just leave me n him alone can all not.. why like this... den he go liao...  my father call me find shoes for him.. i already angry but he still call me find shoes  for him.. what the fuck.... den my grandfather at outside say dun 1 go also cannot if dun 1 go dun stay his house.. talk all nonsence thing.. n bad abt him... i kek ki d.. he keep say this to my sister...... all go d...den  my father call me ask me the thing put where again.. he though i'm who.. everthing i also know a??? keep ask me for wat... now my sister go eat kim gary.. just left me alone.. just now call my friend.. i suddenly cry..........but lucikly i close my phone d................................

i want to watch transformer but the movie ticket so expensive around rm13.. normally 10 nia.. now so expensive.. i quarrel with loon also i feel be shiok to go.i dun no how to say but feel suffer every time.. after that day quarrel i think we recover d.. but now bcs of this quarrel again.. i dun no who fault.. but i also feel that i every time also no wrong.. izit i'm too selfish.. i always ask myself.. but every time i say no.. is  my right...  i suddenly feel very angry.. i dun no why.. ='(

i dun no wat i want

today loon tell me the truth. he tell me he sometime got smoke.. but that day he promise he dun 1 smoke.. but he say cannot tahan. so i also ok. and call him promise me if u 1 month smoke above 1 box must tell me.. if u din tell next time your son dun have ass... den he say cannot promise such thing..
i dun understand why cannot. if u din lied me den nothing will happen.. if u plan to lied me u only scared ma.. den he angry say cannot like this say.. he dislike people say such thing. but if u din lied me wat for u scared. i really dun understand. he say when he honest tell me all the thing i try to angry n quarrel.. maybe he tell me the truth i will happy but call u promise me u cant.. when someone tell me the truth i dun 1 scold or quarrel with them.. bcs i know when the person tell the truth u angry next time he try o hide something bcs he dun have brave anymore. so i dun i just wat he promise me.. bcs last time he lied me. i told him 1 month 1 box cigarette maybe he dun over or over i dun no.. den he smoke at my house i ask him got all not he tell me dun have but i tell him indirectly.. hope he will give me the answer i want..  but he dun.. i ask him several or many many times but he din tell me.. so this time i all him promise me such thing.. den he angry dun 1 promise.. >.<

i dun no wat happen to me.. everything i done also wrong... when u are sleeping suddenly your father call u take the thing go and put... but he cant put him self must call me..when wake up wat go and put he say not put want call me wash for him.. den i say ok.. but he call me NOW wat your feeling??? i sleeping but he call me now.. got a bit unsound mind loh... i say later i wake up d i only go n wash for u.. but he say cant want now.. got a bit sampat loh... den i say later put him shirt at floor..
he suddenly scold bad word.. and say me lazy.. feel angry nia.. keep scold n say me lazy. this few days i doing my assignment, law test, presentation.. 4 days slp 4hours nia.. today finally finish all my stuff.. just want to rest nia.. he say me lazy... after wake up call my brother take shirt for me.. i already at toilet.. but he say dun have...i bath finish d.. he only go n ask my father.. let my father scold me.. and say next time want use his car everyday must wash is car cannot lazy.. if want lazy den dun drive... wat kind of father is this.. i dun want be his daughter can i feel so suffer...dint understand me at all..
feel angry just want listen some music n relax nia.. when  angry i hope to listen my favorite song den everything will be ok for me..but my bf keep scold me he want find something but i already angry i say tomorrow only find for u.. den he also scold say i lazy again.. just now slp until now call u find something also cannot.. wat the hell all people keep saying me.. just want to find someone that understand me.. but cant... he come n scold n close my music..
  call him dun close d.. but he keep close.. i dun understand why... he want to purpose make me angry n quarrel.. i really dun 1.. i just want to have a simple life nia.. is it very difficult??? i keep telling myself this is faith.. but sometime really cant accept.. he keep disturb me.. den i crying d.. n tell him my father scold me though he will regret just now scolding me.. but no.. he keep scolding me n say me again.. i angry dun 1 to talk anymore.. start doing my homework.. den he say din do homework still listen the music... i on with him 3 years d.. but i dun think he not really understand me.. i ignore him.. he come n talk my pen n close my eyes dun let me do my homework.. he still purpose do me.. he dun even feel regret...when my sister saw me crying.. ask my bf why he crying but u still sleeping.. den he reply.. non of my business.. my heart directly crack.. i keep crying.. he keep sleeping.. i though he will regret but he din.. n say such word.. i keep cry.. but he really slp d.. i dun no wat is life n dun feel that my life still got hope..

he is my true LOVE???

i dun no how.. when my birthday is reach he keep asking me wat i want.. i also no idea wth that this is bcs i want surprise impossible want i tell all.. maybe ring...also can i dun mind.. last half years ago he plan to give me mp3 promise very long d.. den i just sugggest him to buy mp3 for me n go n eat tao.. but he say dun need birthday should get some surprise but ay last..... he give me mp3 n we go n eat tao...not even that.. he say want buy myvi for me or i phone i'm so happy.. just share this gud news with my friend but......... at last nothing.. den he go n tell his company people that he going to buy a myvi.. e dun even have money but tell to all his friend.. wat the fool is that.. maybe she think i'm stupid.. i though he say just out nia.. but  after my birthday he really want bring me go n see the car... but he just feel shame if din buy.. bcs he tell all his friend.. i already tell him dun always like this.. if really got heart buy for me u dun really need to tell all people u want buy for me... but at last he tell me bcs my sister always say him he cant suffer n cant let people talk about him so he plan to buy car.. bcs of the car we quarrel.. wat nonsence is that... i really dun no... wat he want from me.. den call me pay 200 for the car.. i'm just student how can i earn 200 without any job.. i reall dun no.. he din plan his future just bcs of proud he want buy the car.. he can give me future????   bcs he really din plan his future ;m headache.. wat kind of story is that.. maybe all bullshit but is really.. really damn.. can u tell me i still can suffer like this??? the guy who cant give me future but i keep going like this?? har har har???

dun 1 share with anyone but only share with blogspot..

haix sad really dun no.. how to write this few days my mum keep scold me..ask me why every use computer dun 1 use 1day can died hor? she ask.. i also dun no how to answer.. this few days also scold i keep tahan.. nothing to say.. just now morning my father call me take very heavy and long eh thing..
i'm the girl only why u call me take so heavy eh thing.. crazy want.. my granda and father call me call my bf but he sleep d.. when he sleep u call him he very difficult to wake up.. but my grandpa go n call.. he help me do all the thing but i have to do also.. at last we eat lunch together.. after lunch my father call again his time i dun need do.. he call my bf and my brother.. den my bf say want go hometown at butterworth i stay penang.. i say ok.. but at last i din go he bring my brother go hometown................
haix i dun no la.. today i dun no how to write my blog.. stop here next time continue.

whe i have blogger account i will feel happy.. bcs every time i upsad i can write inisde the blog...
this time.. is xxx again... i hope i can changes his attitude..
today my book lost d.. i need present but book lost i cant.. i have to lend from my friend.. but she din rite any example i dun even understand.. i feel mad... while open the microsoft xx come n disturb me i warn him that dun come n disturb.. den he ask me who lend my book i say my friend whe she return back to me i lose it..
den he say wat her name tell me i go n scold her.. i lend my friend but he say 1 scold my friend bcs lending the book..
i already feel angry.. den i ignore him.. din say anything.. after few min he come n hug me near the ass.. i already angry but he keep do me like this..if really want hug me wait until i happy first.. but he din.. he purpose come n do me.. i really damn angry.. i cant finish my work but he come n disurb.. he cant help me but pls dun disturb me i din blame him if anything go on...
if i really angry i wont scold him without reason but just let me alone.. so i can rest and slowly settle the problem.. but he cant...at last we quarrel... while quarrel i tell him tat why i so angry the he feel sleepy d.. look like already sleep.. feel suck.. wat kind of relationship.. i dun no how to settle my relationship d.. eventhough i like him but no choice.. feel angry.. he always purpose come n  do me.. when i tell him dont he do.. when tell him do he dont.. wat kind of bf.. until now i din do anything.. hot temper.. reallly damn angry..

money is important

i dun no how to start my topic.. but i can say money is important..... xx dun have money i can lend himwithoutany reason... but after he got money he will action d... i hate... if he 1 like to action den dun lend money from me.. i ahte lah.. i dun no why.. after few month i cant tahan d.. i scold him after that he din say liao.. but we always quarrel bcs ofmoney.. he call me borrow him 450 den i give liao.. but he forget i also dun no how to tell him or say my feeling.. but i really very angry.. he always say me.. how???? really kek sim nia... money money maybe more important den relationship .. haix.. sad