6 more hours left

I din nervous at all... i left 2 or 3 more chap dint read but i'm still want to watch movie.. wat kind of student is this.. sometimes i feel i'm really not suit to become a student left so much? it means i dun need to slp tonight??? going to urn midnight oil again? den how abt sun?? i want dating.. i dun want go to test accounting... i want go balik pulau.. but can i??? really headache... haix.. i hope i can do it.. i'm not greedy i just want to pass... izit very hard??? haix... i really pressure... until i want to cry.............. T_T

i DECIDE to let goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo..........................

i think i should let go........
when the thing is not belong to me i hold it tight also useless...
hold tight it will make me feel more tired,,,
i decided to let go... n give him stay at butterworth..
i dun no i still have future with him all not...
but i just let go n give him do wat actually he want to do....
if he want lied to me n go out with the girl den i cant do anything also...
live with me does not means he care me or i can take care him
live with me..he also come back late n din tell me at all...
come back late he will go n bath den go out again. until midnight he come back n slp..
wat the meaning he live with me.. actually is the same. maybe more worst..
cause i see him go out without telling me i more hurt..
if he go butterworth he will happier.. bcs he dint not control by me...
i know after the thing both of us have problem ..
or maybe i can say there are something in our middle..
actually live together but we dint not understand well...
so what for.. if i hold tight n dun let go. the thing will be broke..
so....................
the song say 'if he love me he wont ai mei'
i really feel absolute correct... my heart ca only keep one guy..
so if the person can keep 2 girl means u actually not important at all...
everytime i listen to the song i will cry...
the song so meaningful.. the song say i though he care me n though i'm special in his heart.. but actually he dun love me,,,,,,,
this few days cant slp well .. i think our relation become stranger.. really..
when the thing already stranger i keep care him n do wat everything our relation also wont changes to the normal want.. so wat for..
you din love me already actually i'm the one dun want accept the reality.. T_T

you tell me actually I'm dun no everything.. and wat i do u also dont no..
maybe i know.. but just dun want ask much n let it go hope u will explain n tell me... but i think i'm wrong.. u wont u turn n tell me wat going wrong..
so now i decide u go n stay your home den i stay my home.. if u want call me u call
if dun want i wont force also... i will let it be.. n see actually wat u want...........

在你的心我有多重要呢？？？

我好想看到不应该看到的东西。
我看到他跟女生写信那是后是早上5点。
可是我问他为什么没有打给我他就说忘记了。
可是回来的时候就看到那个信。那个信息是他写给女生先的。
Yesterday跟他吵架我跟他说以后不可以delete信。
他答应我了。等他回来我也不是故意看的是因为那个莫名其妙信charge钱我才会去看。
然后帮他做。过后就看到他和女生的信了。我还以为他真的那么听话没有delete。可是他应该是忘记。
过了晚上他就delete了。
我好后悔看到。因为信里面loon问他为什么不要睡。他就说要了。
可是他又说你是没有跟我睡你睡不着是吗。我看到了我心很痛。
他跟我走那么就了他还说要跟别的女生睡那是什么意识啊。
那个女的还讲他gatal。如果他没有删除我也没有那么生气因为我知道你是跟他玩的。
可是你故意删除掉。:'(:'(:-!我真的很心痛。
今年是我和你的4年anmiversary可是他好像忘记了还去到12点才到家。
晚到家忘记也没关系可是他晚回也没有说。是什么意识啊。我真的不能忍了。
到底我在你的心到底有多重要。
你做这样的东西我没有讲到什么。可是我们一起走的天你也忘记。
你last year忘记说今年一定记得。过后还是说了算
让我一个人过。我突然感觉到我好像变的没有力去。。。。。 :'(:-!:'(:'(

我好想感觉到有人代替我了。现在我做什么你也感觉到不对做什么你也感觉错。那你要我这样呢?我真的很心痛。要不然就跟我说那个不是我的工要不然叫我不要问那么多要不然叫我不要讲那么多那你当我是谁??? 你的女友朋吗??? 还是真的有人代替我了????