what is chap cheng actually???

can someone told me what is that.. my father scold me like this..
chap cheng means your mum make love with someone and other father and the child is chap cheng..
but my blood is same with u but u scold me chapcheng kia.. wat the fuck u trying to say,, n say me kim sui.
dad u know wat are u trying to say??? i feel blur and pain when u scold me like this..
no reason to make me accept.. i fell frustration!!!

i dun no wat u want actually.. i on with u so long d.. but now u told me i just need your money.
n tell me my hol family also money face u means i'm also the same??
u hurting me... i hope u understand me a bit dun lied me and trust me..
that it!!!! is that very over.. i just want simple relationship nia.. like this u also cant make it..
u make me dissapointed. u tell me u want reject them when there call u out yesterday promise me..
but now u go out with them.. how i going to trust u if u keep lying me..
u cal me tolerate u but who going to tolerate me.. i really tired,, and u ask me why everyday i want quarrel.
ut why u dun want ask yourself this question.. if u din make me angry i wont angry.

我知道什么叫做心碎的感觉了

我想要找回以前的你可以吗?能对我一心一以的你。
 现在你的心好想没有我的存在了。是我多心了吗?我看到了。
如果我没有看到我也不知道你变了心你的觜是说没 有可是有你也不可能说的。
你今天跟我去thailand 了。可是我shopping你就睡在车上跟我说你生病了。
可是我看你是lazy啦。是生病可是lazy比较多咯。
晚上一起去吃steamboat我叫你不 要吃辣那么多我也是关系你。
过后问你不要吃了吗?你就跟我说你不知道我生病吗你跟我走3年了你不知道吗?我不知道该说什么。那我就没有讲什么了。我就去拿 肉来吃过后你也吃了。
那你不要说你不要吃。
吃饱回要叫你跟我买衣服可是你就跟我说你不要跟我!那时候我可以跟你说我真的要哭了。
我来到这里就想要跟你拍照 跟倍我买衣服可是你两个也不能做给我。
叫你跟我拍你就问我拍什么讲到很不爽。不要跟我买衣服我也不要讲了。
回来了想要叫你去disco过回他们不要去了。 你也没有说要去啊。那我就跟我姐讲话,可是我弟弟看到你走去下面跟我说你不是生病吗?
为什么你还能去我也不知道该说什么。
为什么你要去你不要跟我说你要去 呢?你可以叫我去的。
如果不要最少你也跟我说吧。可是你走出去我也不知道。
我骂你问你为什么你不要倍我买衣服你就骂我跟我说wen啊我倍你来这里就可以了 现在我头痛为什么你不要给我睡觉。
如果你头痛那为什么你还要去disco呢?
我真的搞不懂你问我跟你走那么久了你生病我不知道吗?
可是我真的不知道你什么是生病什么时候没有的。
因为如果你真的要的话你就会说你没有生病了。
我在这里 关这eyes然后慢慢想回你跟我说的话就哭了。
跟我说我不了解你因为你一时一样。我问你你的心有谁你就跟我说-我还有电话的女人。
那时候我知道什么叫做心 碎的感觉了。
每天也在想你说的话你做的事让我很烦。
我不知道要这样做。T_T

even though i dun have u i can survive...

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WTF

wtf i know u 4years d... but nowadays i dun understand u anymore...
i control u.. i dun allow u smoke i dun allow u go karoake or disco.. this is because i care u and love u...
bcs of me u seldom smoke and disco.. but now u tell me 'i dint marry u yet but now u already control my life" i on with u 4 years now u tell me this.. i cant accept..  i ask him what do u want from me.. he say he want FREEDOM i already give him freedom as much as i can.. but now he say dun enough... i really dun understand u d.. u not the one who i recognize.. i really tired d.. i want hug someone.. and call someone replace u... if i can..... u sms with someone by sending sayang i see it but i just pretend i cant see.. so what do u want?? i try to be patience but u just want to make me angry..
i damn angry.. really really angry..
what can i do.. i want u become the person i recognize last time.. can u??? i eat dinner with u den u tell me i love that noodles very much.. but actually i eat that noodles i will vomit.. i on with u so many years den u tell me i love that noodles.. if i angry u say i want quarrel.. if i dint say out or angry u try to forget..

sometimes i really really dun want angry but u try to make me angry... yesterday he told me he drink beer.. den he go disco, he spend 180.. i get shock.. but he honest tell me.. if i angry next time he wont honest anymore..so what can i do?? eventhough i very sad but i just can silence and accept the true.. bcs he honest. i already told him yesterday dun spend over 100 but now he spent 80.. i really.... sad but cant scold him...i want slap ppl d.. nowadays our relationship become poor and poor.. my problem or your problems??? he everydays say me wants to quarrel and want wins.. but he the one.. he keep saying me.... i should give up this relationship.. izit??haix.......