can u pls leave me alone!!! @#@$%$%#$%$$#@

today loon say want bring me go n eat gcb.. yesterday promise me want but my mum call me buy something.. so we din go d.. so just now want go butmy grandfather cook d.. i very difficult call my grandpa call my sister eat. at last he call but my sister dun 1 eat.. luckily he din force me go n eat.. now loon work butterworth. but i stay georgetown.. so everyday he also very late only reach home.. just now reach he want bring m go n eat mcdonald d.. suddenly my father call him go ipoh.. de he ask where, when n why lo.. den he say dun 1 liao.. but my father say he dun no how to go ipoh.. so only call loon.. but i can tell u loon english not very gud.
so he dun even no how to read sometime so how he going to bring my dad reach there.. he say dun 1 my father keep force.. every day i can see loon only few hours.. he back we eat d den slp d.. now he call he go.. now go den 6 am only reach.. loon dun need slp d izit?? i dun no why my father so selfish he din think before... he say nvm later give him slp... but i be shiok ma.. that day also the same he say dun no call loon bring he go.. at last loon dun no give him scold until like dog only.. den my mum call loon call him go.. my mum also no brain.. den my mum say if dun 1 den tell me father he already know my father attitude but he call loon say.. he say sure be eh la.. no brain think meh.. purpose i think..
at last my mum din call my father so he keep call loon go n say i call u go also difficult a.. if i know how to go ipoh i dun need call u d.. call until so pah mia.. he say like this wor.. hopeless nia.. i tell him father that day u call him bring u go butterworth he dun no also give u scold d... now u still call him go later dun no u scold again.. den he ignore me.. wat the hell n keep call loon go.. loon keep refuse he keep call him go... i dun no la.. i feel angry nia.. den i ask him just now call my mum my mum say wat but he ignore me.. he keep tell the story to my sister i feel i'm not his gf anymore.. den he go n do the air condition eh but he injure d.. dun no why.. den i ask him why like but he tell me the reason loh.. den he din say anything liao.. but he go n tell my sister how he injury and alll that but he din tell me.. even though he not willing to go also din tell me only tell my sister.. i feel very agry bcs i feel like this not respect me loh... i dun no la.. maybe he dun want tell me or wat.. but he like  this treat me....
after that my father keep call i also pek chek d.. i call my mum n tell my mum loon dun 1 go.. ask my mum call my father n tell her loon not willing to go.. den my mum scold me tell me if dun 1 go tell your father la .. why keep calling me.. i'm busy but u keep calling if dun 1 go just tell him la.. he know my father attitude eh.. den i tell him u call only can we tell him we dun 1 go he keep call us go.. den she also keep scold me.. i straight close her phone.. i feel angry.. just leave me n him alone can all not.. why like this... den he go liao...  my father call me find shoes for him.. i already angry but he still call me find shoes  for him.. what the fuck.... den my grandfather at outside say dun 1 go also cannot if dun 1 go dun stay his house.. talk all nonsence thing.. n bad abt him... i kek ki d.. he keep say this to my sister...... all go d...den  my father call me ask me the thing put where again.. he though i'm who.. everthing i also know a??? keep ask me for wat... now my sister go eat kim gary.. just left me alone.. just now call my friend.. i suddenly cry..........but lucikly i close my phone d................................

i want to watch transformer but the movie ticket so expensive around rm13.. normally 10 nia.. now so expensive.. i quarrel with loon also i feel be shiok to go.i dun no how to say but feel suffer every time.. after that day quarrel i think we recover d.. but now bcs of this quarrel again.. i dun no who fault.. but i also feel that i every time also no wrong.. izit i'm too selfish.. i always ask myself.. but every time i say no.. is  my right...  i suddenly feel very angry.. i dun no why.. ='(

i dun no wat i want

today loon tell me the truth. he tell me he sometime got smoke.. but that day he promise he dun 1 smoke.. but he say cannot tahan. so i also ok. and call him promise me if u 1 month smoke above 1 box must tell me.. if u din tell next time your son dun have ass... den he say cannot promise such thing..
i dun understand why cannot. if u din lied me den nothing will happen.. if u plan to lied me u only scared ma.. den he angry say cannot like this say.. he dislike people say such thing. but if u din lied me wat for u scared. i really dun understand. he say when he honest tell me all the thing i try to angry n quarrel.. maybe he tell me the truth i will happy but call u promise me u cant.. when someone tell me the truth i dun 1 scold or quarrel with them.. bcs i know when the person tell the truth u angry next time he try o hide something bcs he dun have brave anymore. so i dun i just wat he promise me.. bcs last time he lied me. i told him 1 month 1 box cigarette maybe he dun over or over i dun no.. den he smoke at my house i ask him got all not he tell me dun have but i tell him indirectly.. hope he will give me the answer i want..  but he dun.. i ask him several or many many times but he din tell me.. so this time i all him promise me such thing.. den he angry dun 1 promise.. >.<

i dun no wat happen to me.. everything i done also wrong... when u are sleeping suddenly your father call u take the thing go and put... but he cant put him self must call me..when wake up wat go and put he say not put want call me wash for him.. den i say ok.. but he call me NOW wat your feeling??? i sleeping but he call me now.. got a bit unsound mind loh... i say later i wake up d i only go n wash for u.. but he say cant want now.. got a bit sampat loh... den i say later put him shirt at floor..
he suddenly scold bad word.. and say me lazy.. feel angry nia.. keep scold n say me lazy. this few days i doing my assignment, law test, presentation.. 4 days slp 4hours nia.. today finally finish all my stuff.. just want to rest nia.. he say me lazy... after wake up call my brother take shirt for me.. i already at toilet.. but he say dun have...i bath finish d.. he only go n ask my father.. let my father scold me.. and say next time want use his car everyday must wash is car cannot lazy.. if want lazy den dun drive... wat kind of father is this.. i dun want be his daughter can i feel so suffer...dint understand me at all..
feel angry just want listen some music n relax nia.. when  angry i hope to listen my favorite song den everything will be ok for me..but my bf keep scold me he want find something but i already angry i say tomorrow only find for u.. den he also scold say i lazy again.. just now slp until now call u find something also cannot.. wat the hell all people keep saying me.. just want to find someone that understand me.. but cant... he come n scold n close my music..
  call him dun close d.. but he keep close.. i dun understand why... he want to purpose make me angry n quarrel.. i really dun 1.. i just want to have a simple life nia.. is it very difficult??? i keep telling myself this is faith.. but sometime really cant accept.. he keep disturb me.. den i crying d.. n tell him my father scold me though he will regret just now scolding me.. but no.. he keep scolding me n say me again.. i angry dun 1 to talk anymore.. start doing my homework.. den he say din do homework still listen the music... i on with him 3 years d.. but i dun think he not really understand me.. i ignore him.. he come n talk my pen n close my eyes dun let me do my homework.. he still purpose do me.. he dun even feel regret...when my sister saw me crying.. ask my bf why he crying but u still sleeping.. den he reply.. non of my business.. my heart directly crack.. i keep crying.. he keep sleeping.. i though he will regret but he din.. n say such word.. i keep cry.. but he really slp d.. i dun no wat is life n dun feel that my life still got hope..